With the world reaking of mayhem and havoc
suicide dreams have become my latest habit
getting off on the idea of my friends crying below,
I want to die just to see if this is so.
A wrist plus a knife is to a neck plus a noose
is to a cry without reason, a lie without treason,
it doesn't exist, at least not on a mortals list.
It doesn't scare me, I'm aware, I have problems I can't share.
let the weeping grass tell my tales, my grave, my essence, inhales.
Do not shed your tears, my death came fast. thankfully it was my last. No more scarring or tearing, or parting or sharing. I just wish the last person I saw was you, but it wasn't, it
Death...
the immortal question of the mortal beings..
a question that I almost answered..
ghosts of the past had haunted my every waking hour and stain my mind like blood to whool.
time spent in the darkness sometimes teaches you to search for the light..and sometimes the light begins searching for you..
sometimes...and most of the time...the light cannot find you..and you search and search and search..until you've given up...then even the darkness goes out..and you are further from the light than you've ever been.
I am the pale boy
I was lucky enough for the light to have found me..before my light, and dark went out
Shrouded in a cloak which is created by pain
I stand all alone while I lose what I gain
The tears of blood I shed I fear are growing stronger
Cannot rest during night cannot feel any longer
cuts and scrapes, and bruises and burns
my soul is divided as the tide doth not turn
heaven? a place where we're no longer alone
hell...this place of pain and solitude, I've already known
cannot stand my mind, nor my pain nor my lust
I'll stand before you all as my flesh turn to dust
My soul is released and I am now dead
I've always been deceased, just alive in my head
Do not cry for me, because I know you shall not
do not bury me..leave me th
hating love and hating hate by thepalerider, literature
Literature
hating love and hating hate
Inside my heart I know I love my close friends
Inside my mind I can't help but hate 2 of them
I only hate them for only one reason
Something they have through all sorts of seasons
I know that I love them and I wish them the best
but this thing that they have is quite a small pest
they hug and they hold as I watch from the side
my body turns cold with what they do all the time
your love is strong I hope it lasts long but its causing me pain...
it's making me die and it's making me cry, it's driving me insane.
I sit and my eyes begin to burn, I'd tell them to their face but what would happen in turn?
would a fight then pursue and the
the candles flicker, my spine shivers, as I hear the soulless snicker
my body mangled, my heart is scarred, my mind is tangled in what I don't understand so far.
shh..
can you see my eyes, or hear my cries?
can you hear my spirit scared in its hellish layer as I give this blank stare?
never in your wildest dreams can you imagine my tears and screams, of death and pain of my soul being drained, my mind being blocked and myself given blame.
do not give me that glare as I sit alone with my blank stare...
my blank stare is not blank at all, but rather something inside me you can't see at all...
Dear Heavenly Father... by thepalerider, literature
Literature
Dear Heavenly Father...
Dear Heavenly Father...
I drop to my knees tonight
and clasp my hands and clasp them tight
I do not pray to you to make my life better
I come to you now for an entirely different matter
This child beleives in you and needs you right now
you will fix her fever, fix her life, you shall do it you shall
I don't beleive in you, or think you're real
this child does so make her wounds heal
she has people who love her who want her alive
do not make us lose her for this we can't strive
it's not that we want our lives to be better
but she needs her life lord, so hear my letter
she taught me to pray and beleive in something higher, so if yo
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